Today is my ninth wedding anniversary; I suppose these days that’s really something. I wish I was more excited about it than I am at this moment right now. I’ve spent the majority of my day looking at condos and houses, trying to find a new place to move into. The very thought of moving again is less than exciting however, it must be done along with finding a new job; just another item also weighing on my shoulders rather heavily. How I crave change and growth in times of boredom and push myself; thrust myself to the forefront and yet it still hurts like hell; every time….